Once again, Staying Positive.

I have made some very much needed progress these past couple of weeks. I had a job interview for a job that I would love to work. It seems like a very easy position with minimal responsibility. I mainly have to sit at a desk and help people as needed. I can definitely do that.

My boo and I had some time together where I think it really put a lot of things into perspective for both of us and hopefully we are on the same page. I can't say for sure because I have no idea what is going on right now, but I'm just trying to remain neutral. Not positive, not negative, but just taking it all one day at a time and not expecting anything. I know what I want to happen and I will keep that in mind, but at the same time, I know what could happen and that sobers me to everything. I have faith in my boo and God though. They both know what I want, and hopefully him and God are working on giving it to me.

I'm in an okay place right. I'm not overly emotional as I was a week or so ago. The slight damper on my overall mood is mainly because the holidays just remind me of how lonely I am. Well not lonely, but how I don't have someone to share my holidays with. Well how I don't have the person i want to share my holidays with. And I should get over it, but I don't want to, I want to share my holidays with my boo. Thats honest.

All I want for Christmas is him. That's it. I'll be satisfied with that gift for life. Imma keep praying on it. God knows my heart. I'm convinced everything is going to work out positively for everyone. I'm ready to live happily ever after. I'm ready to show my boo that all those hard times he experienced in his life can be turned to good times, if he let me. God please let him let me. I know his situation right now is hard and for what he wants its easier to keep doing what he been doing. But hopefully he realizes that life would be so much easier if he takes a chance and finally does what he wants to do in his heart. I might be starting to believe that he does love me too. We don't tell each other but I can feel it. And that's most important to me.

Fingers still crossed. I'll be happy when I can finally breathe and scream to the world (ie put it on facebook lol) that me and my boo can FINALLY be lovers again. That will be one of the best days of my life that I will never ever ever forget. It will have been a long time coming forreal. Hopefully soon. Like real soon. Christmas and New Years are coming up and I would LOVE to spend it with my boo and bring in the New Year with him and being certain about us. I know you know that God but just in case :-)

#LOVE.